"To be wise, use the three languages: To think well. To
feel well. And to do well."
Honestly speaking, I was quite confused before about my
life. I’m always asking myself so many “what if’s” and a lot of “what should”. I really don’t know what my life supposed to
be. All I know is I am here in the world breathing but not living. It’s like I’m
just existing whom everyone and no one knows me.
Deep in my heart, I want to see the things I can and
cannot do. That’s why I really tried my best to join activities in school
despite knowing nothing about being great in that particular thing. But the
thing is, I want it. And I believe that having a desire to do a thing is better
than just doing it. So I really tried. But when the time came when I feel like
that is not my thing, I can’t quit because something keeps me holding on. Maybe
it is a way on how can I understand my capabilities in life. Maybe I just don’t
know myself until someone helped me to realize who I really am.
And a time came when He answered all of my questions in
life. He made me realized about me. He gave me a reason to keep on holding. He
made me feel so alive again.
On the moment when Pope Francis looked out the window of
the airplane he was riding on, I was teary-eyed. I really felt so happy that
even though my family wasn’t able to go to Manila, I knew that Pope Francis
arrived in our country with his oh-so-big smile on his face.
My family and I watched the television all day long from
that day until the last day he visited Philippines. We watched all of the mass
that he had done. And from those, I learned a lot. YES, A LOT.
All the doubts in me lessen. Starting from the way I
carry myself from the real deep emotions inside me. I even realized that I am
still lucky to be like this. Because as Pope Francis said, ”Don’t eat well.
Finish your food.” we can conclude that there are a lot of people who can’t eat
enough food for them to survive. And fortunately, I belong to people who can
eat meals three times a day.
I realized that I must help people surrounding me
especially who are in needs. As Pope Francis said,” St. Francis died with empty hands and pockets but with a full heart.”
It’s alright to be poor but as not, we must help them. We must help the poor.
Not just to receive a return from God but to make your heart full of love.
Because he also stated that the most important subject that people have to
learn in life is to learn how to love.
And speaking of love, I also
realized something about it. I must do everything to the people I love. I must
show how I care for them because no one knows how long they will stay and when
will they walk away. But as Pope Francis told the Filipinos, "Real love is
about loving and letting yourselves be loved." I thought that I
should embrace all the blessings that are coming for I believe that people come
to life to impart memories that can hurt or love you more. But the thing is, we
cannot force ourselves to love someone and force someone to love us. It just
happens naturally when your heart says so.
Talking about “hurting”... I know
that it is normal to people to be hurt by someone or some events in life. At
first, I can’t accept the fact that I am weak. I am weak to lose my loved ones.
I am weak to see people suffering. I am weak to see my friends having problems.
I am weak sometimes in our class. But thanks to Pope Francis who taught me to
be strong. With a sentence he said to people, "Let us learn how to be
weak, how to cry." I learned how to be strong.
Life is indeed full of surprises.
Just like God who comes in our life like a surprise. One moment we’re up then
one minute we’re down. One moment we're okay then one second we're not. No one knows what will happen next. The thing is we must
accept him in a surprisingly way. We must allow ourselves to be surprised by
Him.
All of those are the things I just realized when he
visited our country. Those became a big help to me to know myself more. Those
things really had a big impact to my life. At the end, I still give all of my
heart to Him, our one and only Jesus Christ for He lends me a life to live in
this world. Though Pope Francis, God answered all the questions circling inside my head.
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