Whatever
I may be doing, I know that there are people who are watching their eyes on me.
There are people who will always say comments about my actions. There are
people who will never be part of my life. There are people who used to be part
of me who gave me so much to remember. There are people who will come and go
after making me feel so important. There are people who will be part of my life
sooner or later. There are people who stay temporarily and permanently in my
life. But these people will always be a lesson and experience to me.
Honestly, my attitude is based on someone how he or she is
treating me. Therefore, some people are saying that I am good and some
describes me as bad. I don't care if what they are thinking to me as long as I
know in myself that I am doing the best and right things. But there are times
that I would just sit on a chair by the window, looking out and suddenly
thinking why do people always try to manipulate your life?
People want me to be myself but if I do, there are so many side
comments that follow. Humanity is really hard to understand. But as a human, I
need to understand them. I need to know what is really wrong with me also. I
must know in myself what are the characteristics I must not and do possess so
that people would understand me, too. I must know how to adjust for others.
Why am I bothering to tell these people? Because these people are
the one who know and who will know about me. When the time come, when
flame-farewelled happen, they are the ones who will remember me. People who
don't like me will remember me as the characteristics they want me to have to.
People who like me will remember me with the characteristics they see as who I
am.
It really sucks when people don't care what you are thinking or
feeling, considering the fact that you always do. After all this time, I don't
know what am I supposed to do but my thoughts changed when I experienced having
a weather of weapons with my friends. Draught of giants hit me that some things
are meant to be accepted not to understand. Because of this experienced, I
tried my best to change for the better, to see the world beyond what am I
seeing.
As a human living in this world, someday I would leave a legacy.
If you would ask me what it is, I would answer that it is the change I did for
myself to accept and to understand more the happenings in this world. It is the
self-adjustment that I made for others. I consider it as one of the good deeds
I did. But of course, my legacy would still depend on what people are seeing
within me. It is still the people's eyes and observations. However, if I can, I
would like to remember me as a good person who loves to help, care and accept
people whoever they may be. Because I believe in my all time favorite quote
from my idol Taylor Swift that, “No matter what happens in life, be good to
people. Being good to people is the best legacy we could leave behind."
I may not be a legendary whale-road, a beautiful sky-candle, a
colorful cloud-bridge, a relaxing sun-table or an expensive serpent's lair but
I am a girl who always keep her feet on the ground, who always try to look back
and never forget where she start and who always ring-rich to others. And I
believe that I am still in the uncut thread which I need to continue to have a
better legacy that I could leave behind.
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